Even though...

I find it kind of cheesy when people say, "I've come to a cross-road in my life".

So it's understandable that I'm almost embarrassed to say, that I have come to a cross-road in my life. I'm at the cross-road and before I choose which way to go, I've decided to take a detour.

At 3pm today, a lovely woman named Naomi is coming to take posession of my apartment and my cat for the summer, leaving me without a home until the beginning of September. This is happening because at 3am tomorrow morning, Sarah Newman (my partner in crime in Tulum) and I are heading to the airport to go back to Mexico for 6 weeks.

Yes, I will be in Mexico for 6 weeks. Please don't hate me.

You may be asking yourself, "why the heck is she going back to Mexico??". Many reasons are probably running through your head, like I'm running away from my problems and frustrations, or that I'm going for a man.

Neither of these are true. Not running away, and DEFINITELY not going for a man.

I'm going for the exact opposite reason. I'm going for myself. After the recent and tragic death of another friend, I feel the need to go out into the world and to live my life as full as I possibly can. And the sad truth is, I'm not happy here right now, and I so desperately want to be happy. And I know that stepping away from my comfort zone for a while will help me gain a better perspective on my life, and make me appreciate what it is that I have when I get back.

I love my family. I love my friends. This is not about leaving them behind or taking a break from them in any way. In fact, I will miss them all very much during this time. My poor mother is having a hard time understanding why I'm doing this. Even though I've explained to her that I"m not going forever, that I'll be back before she knows it, she's scared that I'm making the wrong choice. And if she reads this, I hope it helps her and comforts her just that little bit more.

I mean, it IS ONLY 6 weeks. I'll be back for Fong's wedding and Nikki's baby. And after that I travel to London (England, not Ontario) for 2 weeks to visit the amazingly wonderful Heather and her family (FRED!! YES!!!), and the always charming and hilarious Kieran. It's going to be a great summer.

I don't know how often I'll be able to update. I'm not promising anything, except that I'll try.

And so it begins. I'm off. See you when I get back.

B.